Lesson 7 - Procrastination

So as it is obvious, I have not posted in oh say, almost four months. What has not so suddenly became obvious is that I procrastinate a heck of a lot. In fact, as one can guess I am doing just that right now! Wonderful isn't it?

But what is procrastination? According to the website that most university students can thank to some degree for their successful survival of their undergrads, (wikipedia - so lovely really), Procrastination refers to the counterproductive deferment of actions or tasks to a later time. Psychologists often cite such behaviours as a mechanism for coping with the anxiety associated with starting or completing any task or decision.There are three criteria for a behavior to be classified as procrastination: it must be counterproductive, needless, and delaying.

One can only assume that the only reason I am posting now of all times is that I am oh so conveniently avoiding studying for my final three exams of my undergrad. While to most people this would seem so exciting and a huge step in my life (which it is), I only wish to delay these exams and studying for them. But why? Why do I want to do this? I have been reflecting on my past three years here - yes I am doing a three year BA - and I realized that I have been in a small bubble this whole time. I have made such tight knit, and close bonds to my school. I have lived on the same residence floor for these past three years and in the same room for the last two. I have worked here and learned the ins and outs of residence life here. I am safe here. I know what I am doing here.

There comes a part in everyone's lives when they need to move on from what they know and move on to what they don't know. What is new. What is terrifying. What is exciting. All I know is living in my teeny tiny room and waking up and saying good morning to 30 first years. All I know is the typical class routine. All I know is that I am so scared. All I know is that I am procrastinating so it feels like I am not leaving what has become home for me in 18 days.

The question comes, where do we go from here? What happens next? Will I get that job I want and know I would love? These are the questions that will be answered along the way. This whole time my life has been perfectly planned to a tee with multiple plan b's. Now is the time that I take that leap, close my eyes and just go. Do what I have never done before...have no idea or control on what happens next. Am I ready? I guess I will find out. Hold my hand, take the leap, we all need to sooner or later.

Lessons Learned
- NEVER leave your 4000 word essays to the night before. It kills you and only gets you a 74.
- Don't put off cleaning your room, you never know who might pop by for a visit
- Make sure to make memories, even if that means you need to procrastinate

I am going to miss this place.